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Reflection on a loss

October 15th, 2017

I had a miscarriage.

I questioned whether I wanted to write about it because most people didn’t know I was pregnant to begin with, and well, this is a dark subject. I feel like I need to write this out though, and I also wanted to give a glimpse behind it. We focus on the positives of pregnancies, but other things happen that are often left unspoken. (If you were wondering, this was indeed the bad news I was dealing with back in July. I’m fully aware that this is a public post that anyone can view or share, but I would still prefer if this wasn’t shared.)

At around 8 weeks pregnant, my husband and I had only told our parents and a few close family and friends. I was careful not to tell anyone else, and I asked those who I confided in to keep it a secret as well. I knew that it was safer to wait until the second trimester in case a miscarriage happened. 10-25% of pregnancies end in miscarriage, and unfortunately, I fell into that percentage.

At 6 weeks, we had done an early ultrasound, and there was already a heartbeat. It was weird seeing a tiny dot beating like that. At that point, it didn’t resemble anything yet. It was just a dot. At 10 weeks, we were expecting to see a fetus, and well… what we saw was a dot again, slightly larger, except no longer beating.

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Recap: September 2017

September 30th, 2017

September was a pretty eventful month for me – most of which I expected, but there were also surprises. First, I took a day trip to San Japan, an Anime convention in San Antonio! It’s fairly close to Austin, so I just drive there and back in one day. I almost didn’t make it because there was a gas shortage caused by people freaking out and buying a ton of gas after hearing rumors that there was a gas shortage from Hurricane Harvey. (There wasn’t one originally.) Yeah, it’s as dumb as it sounds.

Fortunately, I was able to make it and meet up with the cosplayers I was photographing. Here’s a preview from each shoot! (Partial sets are uploaded to Facebook and Flickr.)

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Recap: August 2017

September 1st, 2017

Compared to July, August was a much better month. If I were to pick a theme, it’d probably be healthy mind and body. I wanted to focus on maintaining healthy habits, and as you can see from my previous entry, I also wanted to revive a neglected hobby that I used to love. Some things I feel good about:

  • I exercised almost every day in August, mainly short runs (35-45 min) or long walks (45-70 min). I only missed one day due to a long dinner!
  • I ate better. I changed my breakfast, cooked lunches for work, and got in the habit of picking healthier options when eating out.
  • I lost weight in a maintainable way, without feeling like I was starving or depriving myself of things I like.
  • I finished one Prismacolor drawing and four watercolor paintings. I have another painting in-progress!

Overall, I’ve just been feeling good. The exercise and diet changes make me feel better about my body, and working on art leaves me feeling relaxed and happy.

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