Reflection on a loss

October 15th, 2017

I had a miscarriage.

I questioned whether I wanted to write about it because most people didn’t know I was pregnant to begin with, and well, this is a dark subject. I feel like I need to write this out though, and I also wanted to give a glimpse behind it. We focus on the positives of pregnancies, but other things happen that are often left unspoken. (If you were wondering, this was indeed the bad news I was dealing with back in July. I’m fully aware that this is a public post that anyone can view or share, but I would still prefer if this wasn’t shared.)

At around 8 weeks pregnant, my husband and I had only told our parents and a few close family and friends. I was careful not to tell anyone else, and I asked those who I confided in to keep it a secret as well. I knew that it was safer to wait until the second trimester in case a miscarriage happened. 10-25% of pregnancies end in miscarriage, and unfortunately, I fell into that percentage.

At 6 weeks, we had done an early ultrasound, and there was already a heartbeat. It was weird seeing a tiny dot beating like that. At that point, it didn’t resemble anything yet. It was just a dot. At 10 weeks, we were expecting to see a fetus, and well… what we saw was a dot again, slightly larger, except no longer beating.

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Recap: September 2017

September 30th, 2017

September was a pretty eventful month for me – most of which I expected, but there were also surprises. First, I took a day trip to San Japan, an Anime convention in San Antonio! It’s fairly close to Austin, so I just drive there and back in one day. I almost didn’t make it because there was a gas shortage caused by people freaking out and buying a ton of gas after hearing rumors that there was a gas shortage from Hurricane Harvey. (There wasn’t one originally.) Yeah, it’s as dumb as it sounds.

Fortunately, I was able to make it and meet up with the cosplayers I was photographing. Here’s a preview from each shoot! (Partial sets are uploaded to Facebook and Flickr.)

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Seattle + OOTD #2

September 21st, 2017

My husband and I recently took a short trip to Seattle from the 15th to 18th! We went for a friend’s wedding and stayed a couple extra days to see other friends we haven’t seen in awhile. I’m not the best at keeping in touch, so I was glad they still wanted to meet up, even though we haven’t seen each other in 6 or 7 years.

The Sights

We’ve visited Seattle a couple times before, so we focused more on seeing people than sight-seeing this time around. We did have a bit of time to kill on Friday, so we hung out in Gas Works Park. It’s a park by the lake with a lovely view of the city across the water.

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